ITENTY. Who are we really?

IDENITY

Something today we all have to be concerned about who we are as science has come along on the backs of many insane people to try and jumble us all up so now some of us don’t know who we are or what we are.  I planned to write this post 2 weeks ago but didn’t know where to start, so I will have to go back.  Back to 1945 when I arrived after 9 months of incubation within the protection of my Mother.  I woke to find myself in a baby bed in St Georges Hospital and after a few days I was taken to my very first home in Peel Street.  When I woke, my eyes opened and for the first time for in my new home I looked down and discovered I was just like my dad, and my mum came into the the room and said ‘So how is my new wee man?’  So I knew right from the start what I was.  However I immediately felt that this was not the comfortable place where I had been conceived.  This house was musty and there was a strange smell.  Apparently that was caused by my father celebrating the birth of his first son (Me) so while mum was out of the way having me, he had all his friends from the Air force around for 3 days of poker and whiskey.  The smell was of whiskey, cigars and lies as occurs when such a celebration are taking place that hung in the air.  During the clean up by my mother, of course, she discovered my Birth Registration Certificate on the mantle piece, were my father had put in his name just as 3 earlier generations of my family on his side had done the same for their first born son.  My mother refused to have another one of us men with exactly the same name but she had very little room in which to insert a 3rd Christian name.  So while I was a real chip off the old block going back for more than a century to some time just after the Borer War,  I became known by my 3rd Christian name given to me by my mother added to my Birth Registration and that is what has stuck.  So here I was stuck with a short three letter name when my real name was a long winded name that followed a line of clever intelligent men who were required to lead loving caring lives with a degree of maintaining being observant of others and respecting the laws which govern our Christian society along with having to learn to play golf and fit in.  At 22 years I had to take an Osmotic test only to find that I was above average with an IQ of 142 making me better than normal.  Ha ha.

Over time I was to learn my father came from an old Druid family and my mother was once an Irish Catholic but I never found out how far back my mother’s family went except her family came from County Cork, but my fathers family went back to the Time of King Alfred the Great who was slain by the evil Normans in 1066 so there was always a degree of Robin Hood justice bred into me.  So much for my DNA.  My mother was a skilled Classical musician and played the piano and taught.  Her family as much as I knew were trades people so I grew up in house filled with music and commonsense and my father avoided the role of becoming a legal eagle and took up engineering in the Air Force.  

Therefore I grew up having to walk the tightrope of honesty and respect for my friends and family and bring a totally practical aptitude in all things.  When things got out of hand I always knew right from wrong and made sure I headed home when friends wanted to push ‘the boat’ out to the ultimate detriment of others.  This never made me so cautious that I always knew my own limits because I was always allowed to test my boundaries.  I left school because it was just too claustrophobic as I wanted to go to Art School and become an artist and live in a cave in the mountains and mind my own business.  My father wanted me to go into a profession and my teachers always wanted to push me ahead and somehow in my carelessness I found myself studying Accountancy.  Well counting other peoples money I found the most soulless of occupations and as for Economics I could never, and to this day understand how ‘Economics’ could ever become a Thing.  To this day I know a number of people who have their degree in Economics and they never see any other side of life except the road to a life of running a mountain of bothering with the most worthless of all planning skills.  I doubt if Jesus ever understood these people and when economists arrive in Heaven at the end of their life on Earth I imagine St. Peter will direct them elsewhere as their beliefs as are so mixed up with make-believe where they take a fraction of this truth and a fraction of another truth and try to marry them together to make sense of a nonsense.  Perhaps my friends though will have some redeeming features and they may make it through the Gates and find peace and love because somehow they got to know when to pull the plug on stupid ideas and beliefs which flow out of the fake laws of Economics.

At the age of 32 I think it was when I went to a party of mostly separated people of my own age and found they all seemed to have a chip on their shoulders and it was hard to enter into any sort of grown up conversation with them as they seemed distracted by possessions and status, and past disappointments in their little lives, but I found a table with 5 women sitting down having the time of their lives and laughing and talking.  I sat down at their table and immediately all 5 rounded up on me and wanted to know what I wanted.  Eventually one of these women I found to be quite witty and intelligent and very penetrating with her in-depth questioning so with some difficulty I obtained her name and phone number and rang her the next week to invite her to a concert at the Town Hall.  We sat together sharing an armrest between us and in some of the quiet moments during the concern the hair on our arms stood up and struck each other, the electricity in us for each other physically sparked and cracked such was the electrical effect of our arms almost touching.  I took her home and saw her to the door.  I shook her hand a ran to my car and told myself that I would never see her again.  Within 5 days we were almost living together and so began a 38 year love affair which always seems magical.  It ended when one day against my wishes she took part in the Covid vaccine experiment because she was required to take the jab to maintain her part time voluntary work in a local second hand thrift shop.  Upon her walking home that day she collapsed in the driveway of the school across the road while while on the walk home.  Eventually she came too and phoned me to drive across the road and drive her home. Then came round after round of medical and hospital visits and eventually after 3 months we had to turn off the oxygen to allow her to die in peace and go upstairs in what ever peace she was destined for.  She died fittingly on April Fools Day at around 5.40pm which will have appealed to her life long sense of humour.  The week before she died she questioned me about what I was going to do after she had gone.  She told me to make sure I found someone else and to make her happy for the rest of our days as she had been with me for all those years.

So in my late 70’s there I am I’m trying to find a suitable new partner and in no condition to even look.  I took advice from friends to look into the dating sites on the Internet only to discover that was whole new world where nothing much was what it seemed or what suited me and every pathway seemed to end in place I didn’t want to be.  Now I’m a few years on and settled in a new town with a new love and also having to learn and to unlearn some of things life taught me and also make a new life with a new love.  Having to live by my 80 years of personal Standards in a new relationship is challenging.  I remember that I fitted together with my wife of 38 years by a share fluke of nature.  She was also born week of two after me in the same hospital as I was born and I think she must have shared my baby bed there and we were destined to be together from that time.  Today I have special admiration for those couples who met at school or next door to each other and formed  happy lasting relationships.  Somehow that is how our society grew as a cohesive unit of life for happiness and caring and today we mostly now have only our relationship with Jesus Christ and immediate family as our main basis for relationships where we are fully into each other as we often need a hidden trigger of commonality to form a new beginning as a couple.

So us finding ourselves today locked into this new digital life of money and things is no basis to build a calm loving society where we grow into each other because we have learned respect, common standards and beliefs.  How we expect to build societies which are now a checkerboard of what we call diversity and this is no basis on which to form a cohesive society which will work together to make a safe life for all excluding as far as possible that we ensure we are not plagued with influences and influencers who privately believe in dysfunctional life styles following dysfunctional pathways as are now being promoted by intellectuals media and politicians who are leading society into following a path which doesn’t conform to expected social norms upon which our society was formed.  Subjects such as Economics, diversity and gender issues which follow and predict a future of things is not a sustainable way forward.  New Zealand though is a Country where we have almost succeeded if blending together two very different societies which at this point in time are now tearing each other apart and ‘Education’ is being used to bash both societies together rather than allowing them to grow into each other and at the same time we have to have respect for each other’s beliefs.  One of the biggest mistakes we are making at this time is to force through rules within our education system to learn and speak what is a Stone Age language mixed into our English language both of which are evolving as society grows by making up words for a language we really don’t understand.  Our problems with the language is that English academics are driving the evolution of our own language at a pace which doesn’t fit easily as our language is mostly internationally by nature now and there are just too many people outside who are trying to use AI to remake and modify our language to make it  fit across the Globe so that no one now speaks correctly or uses spelling and comprehension so today our language rather distorts than explains so that it mostly doesn’t flow with acceptable norms of our day to day excellence in communication.

One of thee biggest mistakes we have made over the last 100 or so years is to allow the United Nations to grow limbs such as UNRA and the WHO along with limbs such as NATO and Industrial Conglomerates such as the Medical Profession  and others who don’t have the nous to have such control of all sections of society as they have because they don’t have the training in life to suit the humanism and human aspirations for our health, wealth and safety.  Today they are little more than interfering criminals who don’t have the right or love to hold such power which has to be enforced with laws and a complete lack of tolerance for the individual lives of individuals.  And of course Judges today should need to pass exams in Biblical studies based on the life and teachings of Jesus Christ if society is ever to gain a solid sound base for the future of mankind here is God’s own.

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